Kim Goldman, the younger sister of Ron Goldman who was slain together with O.J. Simpson's ex-wife Nicole Brown, in June 1994, posted to Facebook an emotional birthday letter to her brother, who would have turned 51 on July 2.
It reads: "Happy Birthday to my big brother. You would have turned 51 today - just insane to think about all of the years lost, absolutely breaks my heart. The what-if's torture my spirit, so instead I will focus on your smile, your zest for life, your kindness, the memories of us growing up, our talks, our laughs, our tears ... I will focus on the tremendous adoration and respect I have for you and I will hold on dearly to the memory of what your hugs felt like, cuz I sure could use one."
It's been 25 years since her brother was killed. Goldman said she felt she has been silent all these years, listening to what others had to say about the assault, the trial, and of Simpson, eventually walking out of court, laughing, as a free man.
In the series, she talks to several key figures involved in the complex and infamous case, like prosecutor Marcia Clark, LAPD detective Tom Lange, and Kato Kaelin, who was Simpson’s house guest.
“I just wanted to go full force this year,” she told GMA. “Face some of my fears, face some of my anxiety.”
“For all these years it’s been a little frustrating that there’s been so much about this case … television series, fictional approaches, that I thought it was important to go right to the source.
“I wanted to understand how they were doing, what they were thinking,” she said.
She also managed to interview some of the jurors and soon found out that the three-and-a-half hour "consultation" that the jury had taken was under suspicious circumstances.
“They corroborated what my dad and I always thought—which was that they didn’t do their job,” she said. “They pulled testimony just to cover up that they always knew what their answer was when they went into that jury room, and they wasted our time for three-and-a-half hours.”
Goldman says she also shares with listeners in the podcast the coincidental encounter she had with Simpson a few years after his acquittal while she was still in her car at a parking lot.
“I was by myself in my car. I saw that gait … that I had been following for so many years,” she told GMA. “I revved the engine, and I gripped the steering wheel thinking I could take him out right here and nobody would know.”
But that was just a “fleeting” moment, she assured.
Goldman finished the letter with, "All the love in the world, xo Squirt, RIP."